Your Inner Blood Type is Type B

You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day. Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable. And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success. You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible. You are most compatible with: B and AB Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and

You Are "Wow"!

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im hating now..i hate the way he played me..i hate the fact that i can't bring myself to hate him..i hate the fact that no matter what i do,i'll still love him..i hate the way life always gives me the lemons and i try to make lemonade but i cant..i hate that i was so stupid to fall in love in the first place..i hate that i let myself be like this..i hate that i am alone..i hate that he's not here..i hate that i always end up losing..i hate that no one's there for me, no one cares for me in a special way..i hate that i dont have anyone to cry on or to whine to about everything..i hate that all this is happening to me..i hate the fact that it's been a long time and my feelings haven't changed..i hate that he loves someone else, not me...i hate that my life is like this...i hate that im not happy and that he doesnt even care that my heart is breaking everyday..i hate that i'm not the special one..i hate that i can't get up and move on..i hate the way that i live and love for others and not myself..i hate that i'm not selfish..i hate me for not loving myself before loving him..i hate being this dependent, this vulnerable..i hate coming home at night and crying in my room..i hate the fact that im only gonna love one person this much in my life and it's failed..i hate coming in canada and experiencing all this..i hate myself, i hate my life..i'm bitter..i've always been nice, and all that people do is step on me..i hate everything..i hate life..i hate loving, i hate cupid, i hate myself..i wish my love for him could just go away so that i will be ok again, i wish i could make him feel the pain that i feel everyday, but i cant...i hate that i cant..i wish i'd die...i hate everything!!!!!

here i am, alone.. with all the memories of him around me.. i never realized how much it hurts to see the one that you love completely move on and have a relationship with someone else.. why can't i let go? why am i so stuck with the has-beens and the could've-beens? why did God let me love this person if he was just gonna hurt me anyway? why do i always end up becoming the loser? what's wrong with me?....*sigh*....i really wish i could just stop loving him so that i will stop hurting and actually start living.. i know that the future's gone now..i know that everything i wanted, everything that i needed, is all gone.. i wish he could feel what i feel...now, i'm really certain that i'm gonna be alone for the rest of my life..coz i'm so deep in this "curse" that i only have a heart for him and only want to be with him..but he's gone..that guy who loved me died a long time ago, and all that's left of him is a different person inside a physical shell..he's changed so much..i feel like i don't know him anymore..and yet, i still feel this stupid love for him..i used to be so proud that i could love a person so much more than myself, that i could be loyal and faithful, and that i could honestly say forever without a doubt..but now, i wish i didn't have those qualities..it feels like a curse..coz i'm stuck here hurting while everyone else is happy about their relationships...i dont even have a relationship with him..i've been left to die in pain..*sigh*..why does it hurt so much for me? why does it seem like i'm the only one in pain? this last question is probably the dumbest question that i can't stop asking myself..why can't he love me again?

i need help.